hey~!!i saw you working

well it has been so long that i din't meet you....i kinda miss you do you know??well of cause you don't know....today we already have decide to hang out with each other and also have chance to see you...but after at 1b and saw you work at parkson down stair,that time i kinda shy to face you but still got say "HI" to you...wao~!!!i'm so brave xD

at this few weeks,kinda less news of you
don't know where you been after finish work
i know you always hang out with friend at night
but plz becareful is kinda dangerous
what i have told you and you still won't listen me
but never mind.....i just hope you will be fine only :)

we have been less contact each other already

it has been so long that we din't find each other,maybe because i was always asking about that guy??i sorry if like that,i really wan to chat with you or text you but it seen that i start make you more unwell...isn't??:( haiz....i never put it down the feelings....i just.....don't wan.....i wan be back together just like before but....it this will become true??i think you won't.....i know why you keep reject to back again...it because even we were back just like before but we won't happy as before right??ya...i think you mean yes,i don't what you think that but....it really that we be back together then we won't happy anymore??what reason??because you think that you have hurt me.....but what i wan to say is,i don't think if we back together and it won't happy as before...i don't think so but maybe that is what you guess......then it that mean you don't have considence to love me anymore??


i really wan go back the time when we together
it really happy when together but now.....it not same anymore
i feel empty without you....i feel hurt
i really miss you and i still love you.....always~
i really...........really..........really love you :'(

i'm FUCKING fire up now!!!

though?!you think i though?!i can say i'm 100 % comfirm that is him!!!well~!!he din't answer any message but his information already explain it.....FUCK NOW!!!but......i can't say he is wrong although he nick his name(wo.ai.tiffany),cause i the one who is wrong....i don't have any chance to say him,i with you just a sister and brother.....just now at inbox say those things i should apologize to you,every people say me is stupid that i can't put it down but i don't care what they say to me.....as long i still love you....i already hopeless now,my dream never come true,never happy as before....just left a memories....whenever i think it,i will suddenly drop tears.....you never know how deep i love you now





i sorry tiffany yee cheng chee
is myself useless
is myself overhead
is myself not suitable to you
i just don't wan put it down
i just know make you shameless only
i'm sorry that i can't forget you....i just don't wan :'(
i'm sorry

tomorrow is your 1st day go to work

tomorrow is your 1st day go to work!!!
haiz~!!!kinda worry you :(
hope you at there will be fine,please take care yourself
i can't care you anymore....i don't have any chances to take care you
you are not kid already,you can live without my care


i don't have chance to hope anymore,i'm hopeless now.....
you never be my side again,you are belong to someone ealse

feel heart breaking!!!:'(

girls need take 15min or half of hour to complete their make up but how low boy need to complete their hair??:D

well all girls like beauty right??that why you girl like to make up and it take so long!!!actually not only you girls make up will take so long....well~me too xD..but i'm more longer then you girls.....how say??well~you girls need add eyes brown or what la(don't know what name =.=),add contact lens and choose clothes to wear.....if not suitable then choose other clothes again.....well it took almost half of hour or 45min.......but for me.......i not same as you girl add eyes brown or what la,add contact lens or choose clothes......i don't wear those stupid things,i just wear very simple.....but i make my hair longer then your girls xD....wan't to know how long??well~i just make my hair and it took me 2hours to complete it!!!hahahahax!!!don't believe right??but is true

this is all my wax!!well actually not all....today i have bought a new 1 gatsby and is green color!!xD and my mom have bring back 1 ossie wax and 1 spray cause she know that i like to make my hair so she bring it to home xD

 this is my hair clippers and my comp!!!the blue clipper is make my hair easly stand...erm....how you guys call that??oh~!!!is jagung hair!!!hahah xD....next 1 is the pink clippers,it use for make hair straight.....well my hair always kerinting!!!i hate it!!!and that why i use this whenever i go school nor hang out
                          

before hang out with friend nor go to school,i will go bath 1st and start make my hair....meanwhile making my hair...i also have listen song mp3,cause i don't wan bored myself  =.=....and also i have view someone profile...what for??well is nothing...i just feel like it.....after 2hours and my hair complete!!!well i don't know why today i feel like to SS mood xD!!!then let view my SS picture xP!!!hahaha

                                         at my dad car SS!!!hahahax xD

                                        same style~Sion is acting cool xD

                                   OMG!!!this shirt is not suiet me!!!next time i gonna
                                   use this shirt at home!!!have been SPOILE~!!

                                          hahahahahahx~!!!!xiao sion is acting cute!!!
                                          oh shit!!!is ugly!!!but nevermind~no1 will view it....
                                           only me view myself xD

                                                   my right side view

                                                 my left side view
                                                what happen to my mouth??xD

                                               why i look like not happy??
                                               actually this is my true face :)

                                                in peace mood
                                            lol~why my hair like durian??=S

well just like that for today only...i know not so many at all.....well~why i should SS so many huh?!!
all my friend tell me my hair just like japanese artis...well i was thought that too cause i aiming my hair to just like japanese artis when my hair is long :D....i have view my picture many time but my hair does't look like japanese artis.......erm~maybe need see my real person....erm....i mean my hair..hahahahahax xD

you have forget the pain already
you have forget the past
you have forget those our memories already
you have forget all of our things
and yet....you have forget me already
in your every memories i does't exit in your world :)

you have forget me already,at your mind i just a illusion in your memories
without you....i feel nothing,unhappy but you without me is good choices
cause you won't remember that make you unhappy....look at yourself~
you not ugly....you are always the cute 1 when you smiles~
at this world,have many guys is waiting for you to be your furture husband
well me too but.....i don't feel that i need other girls....now....i just wan hide in
the darkness and crowed place....i need silent myself....i not rich anymore
i already lost you....you are my every things but now....i feel empty..i'm all alone now

In This Quiet Nigh

In this quiet night
I'm waiting for you
Forgetting the past
And dreaming of you

Time passes by
And memories fade
But time can't erase
The love that we've made

And the stars in the sky
That I wish upon
Can't bring you back to my side
Though you're not here with me
I dream of the day we'll meet again

Hold me close, so deep in your heart
I will find you
No matter where I have to go
And dream of me
For I will be there
Follow the stars
That lead into the quiet night <3


damn~!!i still can't find your blog link :(

i'm the person who very seriously in love

few of couples after break and they will hate their own ex girl friend/ex boyfriend because they been hurt or some of them wan to forget each other and so trying to find other target or might be they wan to take revenge so they started become play boy/girl......but some of them will keep their happy memories as a treasure....well i can that i'm that kind of person who serious in love,will do many foolish things for my beloved girl,sacrifice anythings for her,when she need me and i will be there and i will keep the things that we promise and i won't lie her.....i know what you thinking,you think that i just big talk only or think that a sweet talk etc....well i can tell you true that i'm not,i know i look like some kind of worthless boy,samseng and my attitude very lcly but i treats love very seriously....well you believe or not that your choice :)

time sure pass fast right??the time we start,the time we end....everything look so fast for me but day by day i feel so alone and unhappy,say the true....without you my life feel like kinda different no.....is completely different....without you my life less happiness,no caring,everyday moody,sad and no one love me....i have lost many things already...ya~i know what you wan to tell me....i still have friends and parent accompany me but those things to me is not enough,what i wan is i need you so badly i really really love you more then every moment.....all this days i feel so sad and hurt too...you have tell me before that time can cure anythings but....you wrong....you diffinitely wrong.....it make me worst then before.....just only you think time can cure anythings but for me is not....our relationship have been 5 months already,i know is so long but for me at this 5 months i have been face many hard things you just don't know only.......before at this 5 months we have make a lot of promise and you have keep this many promise and din't break it but there is wan promise you have keep breaking.....what did you break??well you have break the promise that we should not lie each other but still....you break it,i know you din't lie me every time but the time when you lie me....i have already know but i din't say it out cause i just don't wan you like last time feel so sad but the person should sad is me....i know it just a small lie but promise always be a promise,i have keep our promise as ever since we start couple but after we break i have broke 1 promise and that is smoke.....well this things not important for you already but....for me......promise always is a promise....at this 2 months we been less chat to each other already,cause you been find a guy accompany you already but for you me is what??well i don't know what you think....you still remember the time you telling me there is a boy who in love with you and try to chase you...at the time i fill so hatred and jealous....why??cause i don't think that guy is serious and suitable,at that time i really feel so angry and hurt my hands.....but my hand just bleeding only is pain at all but the most hurt is without you.....every single day i miss you more then yesterday but it less then tomorrow,my phone still got a lot of our picture and i always keep it...why??cause when the time i miss you,i will take out my phone and view your picture.....every time when you upload your picture at facebook....i will always click"like"i don't care the picture is ugly or what but for me you cuter then other girls and beuaty then other girls,as for me you are the 1 and only and for me those other girls are nothing....every day you out with friends,my heart feel so hurt cause i was too worry you....when you hang out with friends....you din't even think yourself own safety,you just care about enjoy and fun...i know is nothing wrong but....plz use your brain and think clearly why i so worry about you....cause you just girl,every things will might happen to you.....sometime when i boredom,i feel like wan to find you chat but...i don't have any dare to find you cause i scare i will annoy you....i know is fine to find you chat but i really scare that i will find you non stop and i don't wan you feel annoy so that why i less find you chat....did you know when you feel bad mood and unhappy and i was trying to make you feel better??i think you don't....every time i wan make you laugh and smiles it feel sop hard for me cause i just feel that i'm worthless and useless!!!you should know every things has changed is not same as before already....my mood have been so bad as every days...this 5 months memories i will keep it forever and ever cause this memories is important to me....those happy and sad things i will treasure it.....i don't wan to forget this...i wan this memories remind that my first love...this is all about my feelings and is 100% are true,well i'm a lcly person as think but actually i'm the person who very seriously in love :)



if you blame yourself will make me blame myself
if u din't blame.....i will not feel guilty
what u blame it will be the same result how i blame myself
so don't blame yourself :)


<3[I ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND STILL HOPING THAT YOU WILL COME BACK FOR ME]<3

oh no!!my cousin started play facebook already!!O_O

damn it!!why he play facebook??OMG~!!O_O.....don't know which person who tell him account name plus he got add my friend and ask one by one!!!!but never mind i privacy my facebook account,see how you add me hahahahahahax XD
but seriously time sure pass so fast and you have been change a lot but you style still the same as ever





well biao ger...you have change a lot then i though
but you still like to cute and haven't change it
you always act my mom style =___=




don't know why this fews days mood so damn bad :"(

SION is back!!

it has been so long that i less online facebook and other it because my stupid computer suddenly have virus but now....thank to my daddy but new 1 laptop for me hahahahx~!!!i don't know why he suddenly buy many new things and change many thing O_o.....maybe"fa shui"  hahax xD.....btw~i have find a work for spend my holidays but this work really "xin ku" and tired.....after buy new laptop every things need to install and setup......it took me many hours to finish it but.....i still not satisfied....cause your blog that i have save in computer has gone.....haiz~i don't know how you feel right now...hope you are happy now :))

just now saw you take a picture with the teddy bear that i buy for you
i glad that you like it hahaha x)

A.L.Y <3

Hopes ♥

well this is a old video that i record form last week ago,i very like this music....every time i play this music,it will make me feel calm but...also make me feel depress and sad,almost make me drop tears...haiz~

btw it take me 1 month or few week to learn this music...kinda feel like to play piano cause every time i play,it will play out my feelings :)






Hopes ♥


hopes that we still got chance :')

how should i not worry about you??

haiz....you say you can take care yourself and don't wan me worry you but all you did is make me very worry about you.....every time you out,i will worry that you might meet some kind of trouble but what can i do??i can't do anythings just worry....like today you with friends went pub and the guy keep near feel like wan"chiu  ni shui''.....but lucky you have male friends to help if not.....i don't know what will happen to you...do you know that kind of place you guys are not allow?!i know you just go inside and see,but you might be don't know what happen if you went inside....well you might be raped or somethings...that kind of place is dangerous!!is not a playground and don't random to go inside!!!i know what you thinking,you think that i worry you too much already and ya~i don't have the"zhi ke"to say you but.....you don't even know how many bad things come from pub plus you are a girl....you should know most dangerous is you girls,this world have may cruel things will happen to you girls



so...tell me how come i should not worry about you?? =((                          







                                                                                         don't know why all day so bad mood and depress
                                                                                          i kinda so miss you,i feel heart pain really pain ='(

is there something should not know and should not see??

today evening,when i was going to read your blog and suddenly saw you have private your it.....i was curios about it,i was thinking is there something that you write i should not know or you just scare that your write something will hurt me??well i don't know though,but never mind i think i get it your reason already....maybe there is many secret and something hide from me....but i really wan to know your feeling...haiz


[S]ion [I]s [O]nly [N]ameless
 i have found out my name meaning
when my grandmother haven't pass away
she name me this name,at the first time i don't like it
but now....i think this name suitable me...
grandma....did you name me that name just because i'm really useless,brainless,hopeless and worthless??
well i'm really like this name now and know why you name "SION"

SION IS A HOPELESS PERSON!!!!

i so damn fucking hate him!!!

hey!!!would you stop say those sweet words and stop to chase her!!!ARRGGGG!!!!you wait?!wait?!!wait how long?!!you wait makai lan?!!stop wasting time!!!you don't even know her attitude!!!how come you can chase her?!!even you know but i sure you will regrets together with her!!!i guarantee you will regrets it!!i already"xi guan"the way she treats me.....ya,she is cold that why i feel no confidence at the first time but i din't give up to love her!!!i always love the way how she was and i don't care how she treat me....i know she no longer belong to me,but let me ask you one thing...do really can stand her attitude?!!i guess not~well i still hoping that i can back together with her,so i was hoping and i will wait her until she have found a nice guy to love him....but~!!!!i more hope you will stop chasing her and stop find her again!!!!you are not the type for her!!!you just make it more worst only!!!i GUARANTEE one days,she will belong to me.....so......you plz fuck off bullshit!!!you just waste your mom rice and money to raise you up!!what a foolish guy!!!!


.......
last night,i know you can't stop find him
well i nothing to say anymore or control you
that is your freedom,your choice,not mine
i have no right to order you but.....
if the day really has come and you feel touch about what he say then
........
i just can regards you guys love each other happy and forever
you say impossible??
i still remember the time when my friend say about us will love each other
and you were say the same things "that is impossible....!"
but you should know nothing is impossible


haiz~!i still keep hoping it no matter what :')
[ILYNMWWH]

sorry i make you drop tears again/a unwell night

sorry i make you drop tears again :'(

i sorry that i make drop tears again,when i read your blog...i suddenly feel sad and non stop crying....i really so stupid that hurt you!!i so hate myself!!!am i a boy or rubbish huh??!!how can i make a girl cry?!!hate it!!after finish sms with you,i do know you will not blame yourself or not??but i think i should trust you,i hope tomorrow every things will be fine...i love you :')

a unwell night

haiz....at this night,i feel so depress,sad and not well....i can't even sleep,all i was do is thinking of you....do you know what i thinking??i thinking how long you will still love me??i think is not forever cause i know next year or some days you will forget me,i know you love me will not too long....i really so scare you will forget me although we din't together already but i still feel sad,i even don't know how to face that situation.....haiz~well still happy that you won't feel lonely already, although i really hate that guy keep find you but you won't feel lonely now...this is the good news for me,but you don't even know how lonely i am now....well you don't know....there is a girl keep find me but.....i don't have the mood find her back or reply her msg....i always holding phone the wish that you will text me....but never mind i should "xi guan" this feeling....i don't know what i should do at this night....sleep??but i don't have the to sleep....i just keep worry that you will forget me,my heart feel so pain now....haiz~i have hoping it so long but when my wish will come true or it never come true??haiz~but no matter how i still hoping it until you forget me :)

JEALOUS & HATRED!!!!

i  jealous and hatred now!!!shit!!!i hope that guy don't find you anymore or don't mind him!!ARRRGGGHHHH!!!i feel so angry now FUCK!!!!i keep hitting the wall but but it just make my hand bleeding =______=!!!!!ARRGHHH~!!!i can't stop it!!!fine!!!!i just act that he din't find you!!!but how act?!!!PUKIMAK!!!!@#$!$#@!@#$!@#$!$#@!$%#$%#$%#%^&^%&*^&*(%$%@#@@#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





DAMN IT!!!I KEEP HITTING THE WALL TO MAKE MYSELF CLAM
BUT.........MY HAND IS BLEEDING =====_________________________________________________=======

i disappoint you

can i stop blaming myself??well i can't answer it,but do you know why i blame myself??well you don't know,i not blame myself because of last time....ya,that not my fault and you either...i blame myself i not suitable for you,i blame myself i disappoint you....i know why before you don't believe my single words,cause think is a lie right??well i can't that you don't trust me cause you might think all the i still don't trust you......last night your sister(janice ng) post something on her wall,when i saw it....i just recognize that she was saying me,when i saw it....i feel myself worse and i know that is my fault all the time......because of this promise you think is a lie,ya...i know..."promises is worse than a lie cause you just don't believe it" this words already write out your meanings....."hope for something you can't get" when i saw this words,i feel myself is hopeless.....i was hoping that we can back together but i know is impossible for you to come back to me......i think she wan me to forget you,cause it just hurt me.....well i can say she is wrong,cause i know some days what i hoping for and i will get it....i won't give up hope,i don't care anythings i rather feel hurt but i don't wan forget!!!!not matter what happen i still love you,this is never change




[ILYFNMWWH] :')

did you listen me even once??

last time when we chat,you suddenly say you wan to die and that time is really my fault....stop blame yourself ok??is me scold you,you din't do anything wrong......please listen to me ok??i know you have tell me many time that you have reason to die,but let me tell you something...that is not a reason,your life,your parent,your sick and blame yourself that you din't treaser me....are this thing call reason huh??!!do you think you life suck?!you think you life worse then other people?!but do you think about me how i feel??every time you say die,i feel hurt you know??whatever i say or how i care you but you still do the same thing and don't listen me,well find....you can think my words is rubbish and think whatever you wan,what i wan from you is live happly and don't think about blaming.....i really hope you will listen although i not your boyfriend,if you still loving me then please stop blaming yourself anymore but if you din't love me.....well then i speechless now......



and 1 more thing S.I.C.D.I
this is not the meaning of "sure i can do it"
and sorry last night i lie you but you no need to curios about this words
cause this words is blaming myself only










why love each other can't together??
is there nothing that we can do it??
my hearts really feel so pain now

i don't think is the reason

hey,if there something you wan to ask me??plz just ask it,i wont refuse anything your question...it is about our relationship or you wan me forget you or stop loving you??i can answer you that i refuse to forget you and love you...why??you should know the answer....well ya,i still hoping now that we can back together but i won't ask you again and won't ask you how you feel about me,cause i know if i keep asking you i will just annoy you and scare can't be friend again....i don't think that your reason to reject back together again,i know there is something you still hiding....i don't wan you misunderstand that i say you find"alasan"to reject back together,that not what i mean....i was curios,why you still loving me but can't back together again??i know one reason only,the first reason is about your parent don't agree you couple but the second reason is not a reason,i hope you know what i means.....but plz remember if anythings you ask or wan me to do...i will accept anythings except to forget you and stop loving you......i sorry i can't do that




say what you need to say
plz don't hide it

i forget you?!!

how long we din't sms each other already??i think almost a month...i think~at this few day...or should i say every days huh?!!do you think i forget you already?!!don joke around,do you think love a person so deeply and forget that person so easy??!!don't stupid ok??!!you think i'm that kind of person forget people so easy??!!i don't think so!!ya...i know 5 month relationship not long for you but for me is very long,even almost a half years already...this 5 month feeling i still remember it until now,no need to mention it...i still feel hurt without you...i know you might think that i chat with other girl and forget you already,let me ask you 1 thing....forget a person that you most love is that easy??!!maybe you will,but i not so sure i don't even know how you feel about me now....as for me forget a person is impossible,i know you will say nothing is impossible...well you don't know how i feel about you too....don think that i always chat with other girl and forget about you,NO!!you don't even know i talk a lot about you to this girl....i tell her every story since we couple,every days i keep repeat to ask the same things...i ask do we really don't have chance anymore??when the girl tell me that i should forget about you,at that moment when i hear this....i feel so angry....do you know why?!!i can tell you right now,cause i'm not like as other guys won't satisfied just because break these things and go find a other girl to forget you!!


do you still love me??
if yes,why don't back together again??
plz don't tell me same answer anymore
cause that not a answer
you think back together will more hurt right??
i can tell you that is wrong,what make me will feel suffer??
just because you treat me cold??
well i get use to it already...
still what will make me more hurt if we back together??
or that is your alasan(malay)??
cause you already forget me??

just trust each other love

last nigh i with my brother yung yung(not my real brother) go kuala meggatar there yamcha,but there is something bad happen...is about my brother'sister,his sister was argue with his boyfriend and in front of us....suddenly her boyfriend say he wan break with her,the reason is because he can't stand her anger anymore....though they couple 1 year and 7 month....well,1 year and 7 month!!!is not a day only....is really a long relationship but her boyfriend can't stand anymore,my brother'sister try wan to back together but her boyfriend reject her....his sister cry already 8 hours and while in the 8 hours we try to an wei her but we failed...but at the end her boyfriend give her last chance again and he wan she promise that don't do the same mistake again....well what you know guys,love always have a good ending if you just trust each other :)



but is really true that love have good ending??
well for me is,love sometime will have a bad ending too


i should stop hoping again
i already know that we won't be together again
even though how much i love you and trust you so much
but as for you,you already giving up me and don't trust me anymore
i don't know what i should say
and i also don't know that i can give up or not
why??why i can't get love forever huh??

i think i know what reason already
because that i ugly
because that i useless
because that i feel so easy to hurt
because that i so annoying
because that i hopeless
or it because that i really don't have the chance to get a forever love